Confessions of a Chocoholic

a mile over ...a 1000 more to go....

2009-10-27T01:08:00.000+05:30

Dear whoever is reading this,
....contrary to popular belief...I have managed to lose 1kg in less than a week...this while not following my diet as diligently as I suppose it should be. My sins are as follows:
- a delicious and richer than Clinton...BBC chocolate chip cookie
- not drinking enough..or even close to enough water
- irregular and erratic exercise schedule
...I am back with my ex...but we're just talking...I know its never gonna be like before and very soon both of us will have to say our goodbyes...for my prince charming to come along ...I will have to be the princess...and for that a LOT of work needs to be done
...fortunately most men look for 3 basic criteria in selecting their Dream Gurl
1) Looks
2) Looks
and u guessed it right
3) Looks

so...I gotta get
my hair...........................simple....rebonding and coloring all in a days work
my teeth..........................simple again....whitening...thank heavens I don't have cavities and the 23 other oral problems as stated on my toothpaste
my nails...........................they invented chinese nailspas...
my skin...........................water should fix all the blemishes...my diet also does wonders...but after the weight loss will have to take up some serious skin treatments at Dr. Rekha Sheth's...she's like the Fairy Godmother of us modern cinderella's ..trapped in our ugly dull skin suits...should take about 3 months
undereyes.........................gotta a beautiful almond cream that does work as promised

now all i gotta do is get rid of these ROLLS of fat....
which as I reevaluated my schedule...should be done by February...

guess wat? I'm on target...lost 1 kg already..was to lose it by wednesday!!! Yipeeee!!! Maybe if I follow well tommorow and day after will lose more by WEDNesday and be ahead of my goals!

I plan on weighing 55 kgs by Feb 3 2010.
So far so good.
Wish me luck!
a mile over...a 1000 more to go!

Mon: ONtrack!!!!

2009-09-07T20:22:00.000+05:30

I am eating...although not truly honest...I need to consume more water and cut out sweets!!!
Ok its been tough...
I cheated on a brownie!

BUT I WALKED OK!!!

Need to focus on diet...exercise has to increase!
Water intake has to increase...
Also finals are coming up...have to start studying!!!

All else is good.
Dance class yesterday really helped lift the mood..

There is something called endorphins afterall!!!
Well these happy chemicals had me on a high today also...dont wanna let them go...am gonna go for a walk tommorow as well

Its working..and i am gonna make this work
THIS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN IS GONNA BE ABOUT
..HOW A FAT GURL GOT SLIM, GOT FIT AND GOT A LIFE!!!!!!

i PROMISE U!!!

Saturday...a Fresh New Day

2009-09-05T14:09:00.000+05:30

I broke up with my ex for the nth time today. Its over for good now.
I am all the more determined to lose weight, become energetic and find myself.

All old baggages have been discarded

I am free

Diet is on absolute track

intake:
warm water
Tea
2 slices brown bread, boiled egg, baked beans: breakfast/lunch

water: 3 liters...

so far so good...
will walk for 1 and 1/2 hour today...

:)
bye bye folks

About Me!

2009-09-03T18:31:00.000+05:30

CURRENT STATUS: Hi. I'm 24 and have spent 18 years of my life being tormented by excessive adipose tissue.I cant wear shorts, or sleeveless tops. I don't have a single dress in my closet. The only skirt in my closet is knee length and hasn't been worn once. My self confidence is more shriveled than a dried grape. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE has told me that I NEED to get rid of my fat. It can get annoying and at times also very depressing. My response has varied and lately I have become a rebellion. I feel bad and eat more. When no one's watching, when people are asleep...I sneak into the kitchen and the glutton in me is unleashed. Sometimes even when I'm not hungry.

GHOSTS OF THE PAST: Most people fondly recall their school days as being the best days of their lives. Carefree, running around and hanging out with chums. For me my fat was my only buddy. Going to a posh school where rich kids spend their childhood acting like wannabe adults was very very tough on me. Its been a long time since I left school now. The wound has healed and I am surrounded by people who love me and care for me but the scars have remained and every now and then ...seem to open up and bleed.

TURNING POINT:Now this disease is threatening my life as I recently discovered I have PCOD, though marginal, it spruces up with weight gain and faulty lifestyle. My ex had issues introducing me to his parents as he was afraid of what they'd say about him.

I am tired of being judged. I am tired of being thought a loser. I am tired of being taken for granted.

I am tired of not being able to shop what I want. I am tired of being FAT. I dont aspire for a size zero figure. All I want is to be healthy enough to be positive about myself so that my MOM and DAD stop nagging me, and most importantly, to regain that lost self confidence. I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE THE REAL ME.

SUPPORT ME!: JOIN ME in my quest! Support my cause, encourage me, motivate me, help me, advise me. It has taken a lot of courage for me to finally face my ultimate fear. Be there for me as I set out on my treacherous journey. Its very tough to do it alone but when you have the whole world supporting you, anything is possible.

This is my deepest, darkest fear, and I am about to face this dragon unarmed. No pills. No weightloss machines. No liposuction. No crash diets.

STATS: 5 feet, 68 kgs.

AIM: 5 feet (cant really change that!), 58 kgs.

WEAPONS: exercise, healthy diet, water

STRATEGY:
oral consumption=>

- 3-4 liters water daily.
-Replace tea with green tea and black tea
-Replace sugar with sugarfree
-No oil, chocolates, cakes, brownies, icecreams, biscuits, pastas, pizzas, McDonalds, .....
-Replace one meal a day with vegetable soup
-Have only one carb meal a day

exercise=>
daily brisk walk - 95 mins, 7 kms

motivation=>

you guys! if you know any group I can join for motivation please let me know!

Start date: Sept 4, 2009. Deadline: Nov 12, 2009.

CAN I MAKE IT???